Saturday, May 30, 2009 at7:24 PM
Morning people :]
Yesterday.met Kellylove at her crib .
Met Radlove and went off to fetch Icelove at Boonlay .
I really don't know whats wrong with me .
I can't explain my own feelings .
I really don't know why i reacted that way towards all of you yesterday .
I just don't feel like meeting anyone right now,except Kelly.
I really need some advices from her .
I can't be like this all the way,its killing me.
I never been this way . Very depressing !
I hate looking at happy people i feel so jealous and i wish that i could be happy too.
I tried so many ways to cheer myself up i can't . ;(
Im feeling so down,so fcuking down,so fcuking empty .
Im still at least happy because my beloved friends are still around me .
To my dearest rad,
Im really soryy if you're disappointed .
I don't knw whats wrong with me.
At first i was okay and later part im not . i just don't know .
Why am i always the one being used? Why can' t it be others?
Im being used for not once but repeatedly.Am i born for that ?
Yes i did say i was okaay and ready to hear all from you .
Im not upset because you get the happiness but im upset because im being use just to get through you .
Im happy for you because you had moved on.
Things are really not easy for me,its easier said than done.
You know who made use of me and till now im stucked with it .
Here it goes again,im praying everytime that this wouldn't happen but it did.
Try to avoid me these few days.
I don't have any grudges against you .
I feel like a stupid fool whenever i think about this .
Its not worth it quarelling for this .
Just give me time to relax and be the old me.
Whatever it is,don't let go of your current love .
Hang on to it .
I love you still alright .
Meeting Kellylove later!
tc
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